Toy Gunz = Coolio.

the trash can, where today belongs.
i thought yoo were for real, but yoo ain't.

Greetings. Not in the mood at all. These few days, a couple of things happened. Yeah, and they opened my eyes, to tell me who really were my friends and who were just, well. Fake.

Its become all so clear to me now, true friends are those who stand by yoo, cheer yoo up when yoo're down, and they don't pang-seh yoo. They CARE about yor feelings, they don't just say things to yoo without thinking. They THINK about yoo, and they don't do things to hurt yoo. Friends appreciate yoo for who yoo are, they don't treat yoo like shit or anything else.

And yoo know what? Yoo're everything BUT the above.
To yoo, she's always the best. Yoo praise her, think about her, do anything to get her favour. Yes, fine. She's a million times PRETTIER, BETTER, and everything else. Nothing else matters, not even what yoo say. Nothing else matters, not even yoo're friend's feelings. Because yoo love her. Yoo treat her to stuff, only her. because she's the only TRUE and BEST friend that cares about yoo. She's the BEST, she treats yoo the BEST. She's better in EVERYTHING, studies, results, anything yoo could cook up. And everything about her is good, no less.Yoo only bother about her, so hurting other people's feelings, treating them like they didn't exist was nothing to yoo.

Yoo said yoo don't have true friends. Have yoo yorself ever proved to be one? Or were yoo just.. seeking popularity and attention?

Did yoo even bother to THINK if the people around yoo actually showered genuine care and concern on yoo? Or perhaps yoo were too busy immersing yorself in the thoughts that the people yoo met in CCHMS are just fakes, liars, betrayers, untrue friends.. did yoo think, if all that yoo said actually HURT the people around yoo, who were trying to be the 'friend' yoo wanted?
When yoo were upset, who comforted yoo? Who gave yoo little notes to assure yoo everything's gonna turn out right? But what do yoo do in return? Yoo give me that FACE everytime i do something. SO, i'm not good enough for yoo? Did i actually WASTE my time, trying to be the friend yoo could turn to, that friend who cares for yoo?
Apparently, i guess so. i never wanted to sour this friendship. but yoo did it, time and time again. From the day i knew yoo, yoo were the happy-go-lucky, always cheerful sort of person. Right then, yoo said no one liked yoo. But i did. Then, things started changing for the worse, and yoo started having dramatic mood swings. I tried to be there for yoo.

Then a few months later, yoo changed. Changed into another person, and now yoo're a totally different person. Yoo're not the girl i liked before. Yet another 'yoo' surfaced, now it was the new yoo. And i didn't like the new yoo at all. I liked the old yoo. The once so caring, not so unfeeling kind of yoo.
please know that I've always wanted to be that friend of yors. Now, i find i can't even turn to yoo. And yeah. I never thought things would turn out this way.

It's not jealousy, its just a little tinge of.. disappointment.
(and hell, to all who think this is about BGR stuff, IT AIN'T man, IT AIN'T.)
Will yoo understand how i feel? Or will yoo just have another cold-war with me? Will we revert back to the friends we once were, or will everything change?
i guess, its up to how yoo think. I hope yoo understand, because, i still hope to be friends again.

i guess i'm sorry if i'm not as good as HER for the new yoo.
I should have known.